Coping

you manage a smile through the tears
you try and withstand the pain
you wait for the days to pass
you slowly begin to live again

you find yourself writing
it’s the only way to cope
and in the words you pour out your heart
trying to find a measure of hope

you thank God for the laughter
the memories she left behind
you stare at every photograph
memorizing each one you find

you tell yourself Love never dies,
or at least that’s what they say
but something inside your heart
died along with her that day

you find yourself laughing
at silly memories of the past
you catch yourself wishing
you hadn’t let the years go by so fast

you miss her more every day
a piercing longing in your heart
you move through the grief
that increases each day you’ve been apart

sometimes it’s overwhelming
and then it lessens each day
sometimes it goes the opposite direction
and you feel you’ve lost your way.

but ultimately God's grace keeps you going
His comfort is greater than the pain
and each new day that dawns
He’s there for you all over again.